There are no words. that feeling of loving a place so much that you wouldn't want to be anywhere else, ever, and then at the same time hating everything it is about. Sometimes I think "injustice" is the one of the hardest things to deal with. Because, it is just so friggin unfair! and, you probably want to scream in their faces.
I am so so sorry this is happening my love. My heart is there with you. And so is God's. You know it. You more than so many people know how much he is there with you. I hope he reminds you today just how much he is there.
Your stories so often give me so much hope, and I pray that God will return some of it to you. You don't know me, but I've been reading for quite a while. You're doing what so many of us wish we had the courage to do, so keep it up - HE is with you, and you know it.
I have just recently started reading your blog through the suggestion of a personal friend (Amy Beth at MinisrySoFabulous). I cannot get enough of reading about your life in Africa! My heart is right there with you. I am trying to go to Uganda next year and I am touched by hearing what you are doing right now in Africa.
I haven't commented before but wanted to let you know, especially after reading these last two posts, I am praying for you. Praying like I myself was in your position.
A friend of mine shared your blog with me and although I have never met you, I am praying for you. I was in Kenya a year ago and I fell in love with it, the amazing people, and reading your stories has rekindled my heart for serving God in Africa. Thank you for sharing your experience. It's beautifully written. Blessings on you, Ali.