Ali, I am so sorry. It is so difficult to know why God seems to protect some and let others go on into eternity. Praying for you and your ministry today. "All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort." 2 Corinthians 1:3
Yesterday I dreamed of the son I lost. I then woke to the sounds of the son Cathy found in Liberia.
I gave up trying to figure out how it all works. Sometimes life just is.
You do the best you can, and help those that need it. The risk of giving your heart to others is that sometimes it gets broken.
But sometimes it reminds you of something bigger then yourself and brings a joy you didn't know you could find again.
I'll never get over losing two of my children, but every day I wake to my little Liberian son Matthew who you got to know just a little bit back in August 2008. There is always a risk that giving my heart to him like I have could come back to hurt me. There are no promises that things will always go well.
But knowing that feeling of love and joy that pounds in my chest for my son, makes taking that risk again worth it.
I guess it's a long winded way of saying, that maybe God's gift is the opportunity to keep taking that risk with all those little ones and to know the joy you've felt, along with the pain.