just saw the documentary, born into brothels, about young girls destined by birth for prostitution. I couldn't help but think how different their futures, their lives would look if they knew at birth that they were destined for a love relationship with Jesus Christ!
I can't help but wonder if what your heart isn't longing for - and perhaps what God made you for - is a ministry you can be involved in where you make relationships that you can keep working on instead of the quick in and out on the ship. I hear in your words how much you care for people and enjoy building relationships. Who knows what the Lord has for you in the future!